Choking on the Bone

Do you ever feel like you are about to be swallowed whole by your fear? Well, that's how I've been feeling for quite some time. And so I've done what I do best, ignore it. Well, at least I thought I was good at ignoring it. But blast it all, "it" wouldn't go away like I hoped it would. And now that I've admitted 'it' I guess there's really only one thing to do (apart from continuing this fruitless ignoring crap). Take a step forward and hope that when I fall (cause I will!) it won't hurt TOO badly. My one saving grace in all of this self-doubt/fear, etc: Matt. At least HE has faith in me and while I may not have it in myself, at least I'll have him to hold my hand.

Amazing Feats by My Children

I got a pretty good chuckle out of this. Hope it brightens your day.

Sheepish, Stupid, & Shallow = Irony

So I'm feeling a bit sheepish. I don't think I'm the shallow/arrogant type, but then I find myself talking about really stupidly shallow things with people over and over and I wonder if they view me that way and if that's all they think I want to talk about.

I know that I like stupid and shallow things, but I hope that people don't define me by that. I truly hope that they can see past my stupidity and get to what's really me. But then again, maybe they see that shallow/stupid layer and say, WHOA! REVERSE! all the while thinking, "Really?? Is that it?!"

So here's me, sending my stupid/shallow insecurity into the void hoping that I won't wake up feeling this way tomorrow.

Here's the ironic part: I blog about how selfish people see me. Isn't that in itself, selfish & shallow?! ...Crap.